A word on wellness:
Most of us worry from time to time, yes? Have you ever had some nagging feeling that you should or shouldn't do something. Or there's a decision you need to make and you're agonizing about what to do because you're not ready to choose path A or B. It could be ambivalence about when to change jobs, a feeling of being stuck in a relationship that isn't right OR (as in my case) an ongoing curiosity and desire to explore something that you keep convincing yourself you don't have the time for.
Consider this... I have wanted to enroll in a yoga teacher training for the past year. I have looked into dozens of trainings in San Francisco, as well as programs abroad. Time after time I would look into a program and determine, that dangit - that just won't work with my schedule. I wasn't even able to make my dear friend Rebecca's teacher training in PERU. That one killed me. At one point I got accepted into a 3 week intensive but turned it down. I wondered if I was making excuses. Maybe I was afraid, or intimidated and finding ways to not pursue this. If I really wanted to do it, wouldn't I be doing it already?
The interest persisted and I ended up applying for a scholarship, on a whim, for a program that I thought was too expensive and too demanding - time wise. I watched myself fill out the online application thinking, "why am I doing this? this program would leave me with basically zero free time for 3 months." I followed my intuition and applied for the scholarship anyway, and I got it! And that ended up being the deciding factor, the last push I needed to get me to officially sign up. I am now 4 weeks into the 12 week training. I truly believe that the roadblocks I encountered were meant to lead me to this specific training at this specific time.
I love that it all went down this way because it was such a good reminder of what can happen when we follow our intuition and trust that things will work out. That nagging feeling is there for a reason. Sometimes trusting your gut can look like avoidance, fear or excuses. Sometimes it can look like insanity or risky behavior or selfishness. The important thing is to be aware of that and ask ourselves, what is this? What is the motivation for the decision I'm making? Awareness... the more of it we have, the better off we are. Regaining a sense of trust in self and cultivating intuition is one of the things that people seek therapy for. If you are having trouble trusting your decision making, therapy can be a place to explore this.
Something to Read:
Interesting op-ed on gratitude - "... people with dispositional gratitude are continually struck by the fact that they are given far more than they pay for — and are much richer than they deserve."
Quotes to love: