It's been over a month since I've written a blog post for my website. Staring in March of this year I challenged myself to blog for an entire year. I didn't really get more specific than that. I'm not sure I had a certain number of monthly or total posts that I was hoping to hit. I just wanted to give potential clients a way to get to know me better, and see what blogging regularly and (writing in general) would feel like. Today I realized that I was about to make it through the entire month of September without a post and that kind of bummed me out. So here I am writing about inspiration (or lack there of) and the importance of accomplishing a goal. Is this also my attempt to write something, anything, before the end of the month? perhaps.
I have the utmost respect for writers on a deadline. It feels almost physically painful for me to write when I don't feel inspired. For most of the posts on this blog, I would encounter something during the week (an experience or quote maybe) and remind myself to write about it on Sunday. Or sometimes I would have multiple quick topics I wanted to write about and save one as a draft until the following week. I can't explain why I haven't felt like writing over the past month. If I'm honest, I think it's because I've just been... wait for it... too busy. It's not that nothing noteworthy has happened, it's just I haven't slowed down enough to reflect on it all.
This brings me to the second thing I wanted to write about. How important is keeping this goal? It doesn't necessarily directly correlate to my success (does it??) and no one else is requiring it of me. So do I really need to stick with writing if I'm not feeling it lately? Part of the lack of inspiration comes from being too busy to stop and smell the roses. And as I've mentioned in previous posts, I really want to prioritize time for spontaneity, reflection and being present in my life. SO I am going to keep challenging myself to write, because it seems to be a good barometer for how well I'm prioritizing my values. Keeping this goal will hopefully help me slooooow down.
It is important to think about why we want to quit something, or why a particular thing is difficult for us. Resistance can tell us a lot. Yes, it's a defense mechanism, often used in times when it's necessary, but exploring it can tell us a lot about ourselves. For instance, why do you continue to turn down opportunities to step up at work? Why resist support from friends who are offering? Why quit going to a spin class after attending only once? Looking at why we do what we do better acquaints us with ourselves and is the key to growth. Here's hoping that slowing down = noticing inspiring moments.